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so life happened a lot and this blog is ended up being around more than i thought i would keep it but yeah!! hope you people are great and life is great because everyone deserves it! uvu

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i think the best thing about all the shit looking back on this blog and my life is it made me grow up a lot.
hey, i’m 18 now, in a good college, working driving buses (i have a cdl!!!), have a good social life, met great people, and most of all, i actually really love myself. that’s not something i was able to say for the first 17 years of my life and it’s really empowering to have a lot of self worth and be happy for myself. i am no bit perfect but that’s okay because it makes me human. I do not regret the time I had here, and i wish some things i could still make peace with but i’m content.
it’s been real, tumblr!

i think the best thing about all the shit looking back on this blog and my life is it made me grow up a lot.

hey, i’m 18 now, in a good college, working driving buses (i have a cdl!!!), have a good social life, met great people, and most of all, i actually really love myself. that’s not something i was able to say for the first 17 years of my life and it’s really empowering to have a lot of self worth and be happy for myself. i am no bit perfect but that’s okay because it makes me human. I do not regret the time I had here, and i wish some things i could still make peace with but i’m content.

it’s been real, tumblr!

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trivialtrickster:

it’s been awhile, how are you all doing? 

i’m not entirely sure if anyone still follows/cares/remembers who I am anymore but if you do, you’re awesome. more than a year ago i created a few posts in which i explained i was leaving tumblr and the entire internet persona I had for the past six or so years of my life. it’s odd, looking back at everything, i seemed to imply i was just taking a break - when in reality i had no intention on looking back. and i still don’t. think is not a “yo guys i’m back” thing, but more a thing where i’m finally getting closure by deleting this blog.

over the past year and so, i’d go through my archive and just reflect. i think anyone who knows me knows i’m very introspective, and believe me, that hasn’t changed. i honestly left with the same questions from this blog that i still have now, and still don’t have closure on a lot of things but that’s okay. if something is meant to be, it will be. however, me reflecting is only so insightful, because after awhile it just drains me. i think i’ve gotten enough out of analyzing my past than i need to, and it’s time to say goodbye.

it’s nice having an archive of your life - because it’s funny, i’ve changed so so much in the past year or so, and even more in the past two ish years, i can look back at most of my posts and i can’t even understand my mindset. it’s the scariest thing looking back at some depressive posts and remembering i was 100% serious about the things i was feeling and saying but i just can’t at all connect with them anymore. it’s certainly a good thing, but kind of weird.

Leaving the internet was one of the better decisions i’ve made, because not only do i think it did help some people, it helped me. it was something i knew from the bottom of my heart for years - the internet is what ruined me. It held me back. it changed me in a lot of positive and negative ways, and i don’t regret it because I am the person who i am today, but it took a lot away from me in my younger teen years. I’m 18 now, in college, and more happy and successful in life than all of my young teen years combined. It’s been quite a journey, from picking up from all this online shit, to dealing with problems and life around me offline. life is far from perfect, but i can honestly truly say i’m happy.

what I’m trying to say here is if anyone remembers me or whatever, I’d love to come in contact of you before it really is lost. That, and hey. What’s good. tell me about your lives. This blog is probably only gonna be up for a few days longer but that’s okay. I’m ready to say goodbye to it and give myself closure.

i don’t know why i thought posting this in the early hours of the morning was a good idea. reblogging for justice

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viasource

it’s been awhile, how are you all doing? 

i’m not entirely sure if anyone still follows/cares/remembers who I am anymore but if you do, you’re awesome. more than a year ago i created a few posts in which i explained i was leaving tumblr and the entire internet persona I had for the past six or so years of my life. it’s odd, looking back at everything, i seemed to imply i was just taking a break - when in reality i had no intention on looking back. and i still don’t. think is not a “yo guys i’m back” thing, but more a thing where i’m finally getting closure by deleting this blog.

over the past year and so, i’d go through my archive and just reflect. i think anyone who knows me knows i’m very introspective, and believe me, that hasn’t changed. i honestly left with the same questions from this blog that i still have now, and still don’t have closure on a lot of things but that’s okay. if something is meant to be, it will be. however, me reflecting is only so insightful, because after awhile it just drains me. i think i’ve gotten enough out of analyzing my past than i need to, and it’s time to say goodbye.

it’s nice having an archive of your life - because it’s funny, i’ve changed so so much in the past year or so, and even more in the past two ish years, i can look back at most of my posts and i can’t even understand my mindset. it’s the scariest thing looking back at some depressive posts and remembering i was 100% serious about the things i was feeling and saying but i just can’t at all connect with them anymore. it’s certainly a good thing, but kind of weird.

Leaving the internet was one of the better decisions i’ve made, because not only do i think it did help some people, it helped me. it was something i knew from the bottom of my heart for years - the internet is what ruined me. It held me back. it changed me in a lot of positive and negative ways, and i don’t regret it because I am the person who i am today, but it took a lot away from me in my younger teen years. I’m 18 now, in college, and more happy and successful in life than all of my young teen years combined. It’s been quite a journey, from picking up from all this online shit, to dealing with problems and life around me offline. life is far from perfect, but i can honestly truly say i’m happy.

what I’m trying to say here is if anyone remembers me or whatever, I’d love to come in contact of you before it really is lost. That, and hey. What’s good. tell me about your lives. This blog is probably only gonna be up for a few days longer but that’s okay. I’m ready to say goodbye to it and give myself closure.

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since i didn’t actually make a post and don’t wanna leave my blog with just a confusing readmore. though that’s a good explanation of it.

so see you guys. it’s been fun i suppose. to everyone who has sent me messages in the past few days, thank you guys so much. i really appreciate it, and i appreciate every one of you that have at least attempted to talk to me over the years here.

see y’all around

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I’ve been doing a lot of thinking again

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Artist: Motion City Soundtrack
Track Name: "Even If It Kills Me"
Played: 23 times

Even If It Kills Me - Motion City Soundtrack

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bladeglory replied to your post

I will never understand bad breakups. It can take a while but if you can’t be friends then what were you doing together??????

i suppose it comes from the hurt? breaking up is never an easy thing to do and people are usually hurting or just really emotionally sensitive and i guess little things can set off anger + past problems and ultimately make the situation worse. plus there’s a sense of power with ~freedom and people may abuse it act holier than thou? idk man. it’s a good point honestly.

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and the sad truth of the matter is, i’ll never get over it, but i wanna try

to get better and overcome each moment

in my own way.

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